quinta-feira, 28 de agosto de 2008

Seven


Paul Keller closed the door to his bedroom and just stood there staring at the wall. He had missed his daugther so much the first two years! But by the third year his wife Claire had been diagnosed with (insert disease that connects with childs disease) and his longing for Sandy turned into bitterness.

He had to take care of her on his own, couldn't even get in touch with Sandy to tell her that her mom was dying. The anger that came from her leaving town slowly burned into rage, as Claire lay in bed wasting away. Not a single day went by when she didn't ask about Sandy and every time she did, Paul felt like a long needle was being stuck into his heart. Paul had to cut down on his hours at work and Jonah White, his apprentice at the metal shop, who was only 17 at the time, had to learn fast and put in sixteen hours of work most days. He couldn't find anybody else who knew how to fix sheet metal, hydraulic systems, and do electrical repairs to replace him, nor could he afford to pay anybody else. There wasn't that much work around after Sandy left, but metal work was time-consuming and the little there was kept him and Jonah plenty busy.

Keller's Metal Shop's motto, painted on the sign outside, promised attention to detail and repairs that had your machine "up and running in no time!" but Paul found it very difficult to pay attention to his work. With his reduced hours at the shop and Claire's hospital bills, they were barely scraping by and soon he started taking out loans at the bank. The situation grew worse every month and when his wife passed away, he had to beg Bill Brinner at First Federal Bank for one last loan to pay for her funeral. He had to put down their house as collateral and Bill still gave him the smallest possible amount the bank could afford to risk on a guy like Paul: $1100.

Claire was buried in the cheapest casket available and the flowers around her grave had been picked by Paul himself. Very few people showed up at the funeral and for that he was glad. He felt almost as much grief for losing his wife as for the undignified burial he had given her. But he knew this wasn't his fault. Things wouldn't have been that way if Sandy had stayed. All she had to do was close the deal and millions of dollars would pour into town. So much metal work would be needed that Paul would have to start a workshop to teach some of the locals the trade. He would avoid hiring from out of state, folks he knew came first, even if he had to teach them from scratch. Either with outsiders or locals, business would be booming and Keller's Metal Shop was poised to grow by leaps and bounds. Instead, Sandy turned away and took their deal to another town. She was responsible of the economic downturn of a town that was barely surviving before she left and flat out collapsed when she took with her the development deal that would finally bring prosperity to Merryville. Because of her, Claire was buried in a casket so flimsy that Paul shuddered to think how much rest she had gotten before the insects starting breaking through the thin wood.

Sandy's betrayl sent Paul through most stages of grief. First there was shock, then denial. She must have had a good reason for doing this, was all he could think for a entire week. Soon after he felt guilt, maybe it was all his fault, maybe he didn't raise her right. Guilt was then followed by a long stretch of anger and a brief bout of depression. Out of the seven stages doctors talk about, Paul had not experienced bargaining or acceptance. The former because he had no one to bargain with. The latter because he still wanted an explanation before he could have his closure. The road from shock to depression was a bitter one, but he had not travelled it in vain. Sandy was back and he would be damned if he didn't close this wound once and for all.

quinta-feira, 14 de agosto de 2008

Six


It was the smell of cat piss and coffee grounds that hit her first. Then it was the mounds of dirty dishes in the sink, piles of junk mail and old newspapers on the table, and the dirt of past ten years that overwhelmed her senses.

“Jesus. What a mess." she said to the empty house. While covering her nose and mouth she reached over the kitchen sink and yanked up the shade and window. Through the stream of light the dust particles danced in the air like dirty snowflakes. She turned back to the door and wedged it open with a stack of newspapers. She knew the effort was futile since there wasn’t a chance of a breeze and the house needed hurricane winds to air it out. She was making her way across the kitchen to inspect the damage of the rest of the house when she heard the screen door creak open behind her.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing here?” a man’s voice snarled.

“It’s nice to see you too, Pa.” she said without turning around.

“You didn’t answer my question,” he said as she turned to face him. “You pissed a lot of people off leaving the way you did. Including me. So what the hell are you doing back?” He glared at her, daring her to answer.

She knew he was angry, there was no doubt about that, but it was the fleeting sense of hurt that caught her attention. It was brief but present, like a child who gets picked on at school and fights the urge to cry by fighting the bully instead. Hurt or not he was putting up a fight now and she’d be damned if she was going to be the one to step down.

“I'm here to tell you you need a housekeeper. I've seen dark alleys in the projects that feel more like a home than this place." she decided to fight back with the help of her old partner: sarcasm. He had always hated it and he wasn't having any of it now, so she decided to tone it down. It was still his house. “Listen, dad. I got as far away from this place as I could and made something of myself. It was the best decision I ever made and I've never looked back." She looked down at the boards on the floor, her body language offering a truce. "Most fathers would be proud.”

“So what, you here to rub it in?” he almost chuckled. “Or to do some more damage? There are a few businesses in town you ain't ruined yet.” he said contemptuously. He stood there for a moment, waiting for her answer. He wasn't ready to let go of so many years of pent up anger, but there was so much more bubbling inside of him.

"Can I stay here?" she asked, taking her eyes off the floor and looking at him blankly. He hadn't seen his daughter in ten years and all of a sudden she was standing in his living room asking for shelter. "I'll clean up the place" she said.

He stared at her for a few moments and then headed for his bedroom. "I'm gonna take a shower." he said finally. "You can start with the dishes."

"O.K." was all she could muster. He had the right to be mad at her and she was thankful for the place to stay, but she couldn't bring herself to show any remorse or gratitude. Not now, not in front of him or anybody in this town. Her armor was staying on this time.